I remember one night that almost killed me inside, my whole world almost caved in on me and my stable mind. My family and I had stayed out to camp for the weekend and we were driving home after. Dad had to drive his truck and bring the dog home and mom and I followed him in her car. He had been drinking. I remember it like it was just yesterday, though, It was years ago now. He was swirving, and at one point, he went into the other lane while an oncoming car was blarring his horn coming straight at him. It was like slow motion, frame by frame I saw everything happen. He steered right and we were able to get him to drive into a parking lot after barely escaping a crash with that other car. I'm still not sure how he did it.
All I know for sure is that I almost lost my dad last night... And on that night, I died a little inside...
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Tears drip down my face
I curse with anger
At only myself
I want to be free
To live another life
I hate myself
For being what I am
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